When God Says “Wait”
When I told my husband about my desire to pull out our 6-year old little boy from regular school this year, he supported me wholeheartedly. As a matter of fact, I didn’t have to exert an effort to convince him. He just agreed. Just like that.
Knowing that I couldn’t do all this on my own, I started praying about it to get a GO signal from God.
One morning, I got the answer to my prayer — loud and clear. But to my surprise, it was a STOP signal. Despite my earnest and pure intention, God stopped me. How could He do that?
Because He knows me more than I would ever care to admit. He sees beyond what I can or cannot do. He hears what I do not say. He knows that no matter how much I love my children, I am still not fully capable of understanding that every child is different in their own way. That every child learns at his own pace and that I shouldn’t easily feel disappointed or discouraged when my expectations are not met.
He knows that there are areas in my character as a mom that needs molding and refining.
And I totally agree!
It’s true that homeschooling is not for everyone. Now if I am the kind of mom who struggles with patience each time her son drops his spoon or fork while eating, then I can honestly say this is not the right time.
Clearly, God wants me to wait so He can deal with my issues of the heart. And while I let God deal with the rottenness of my heart, I will continue to educate myself about homeschooling. So when the time comes (hopefully next school year), I will be a qualified “teacher mommy” to my kids — not based on this world’s standards, but God’s.